- Kimberly Page-Robinson
The Art of Letting Go: SHATTERED HEART
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; He rescues those whose spirits are crushed. Psalm 34:18 (NLT)
. . . "There is no cure for death, nor a recovery that renders us as we were before, and no correct way to survive the death of a beloved" as stated by widowed survivor Genevieve Davis Ginsburg, in her book "Widow To Widow: Thoughtful, Practical Ideas For Rebuilding Your Life".
While looking for tools and some type of support system, I eventually spent countless hours searching for books to relate to how I was feeling.
Although there are many books are out there on the market – Finding the energy to look for something that will resonate with you on some unique level to be a healing balm for your "perfect" storm may become too much of a challenge.
Yet, you must find aids to help pick up the pieces . . . and find yourself time and again . . . "telling" your heart – to beat again!
Although referring to your loss as "Perfect" my seem like an oxymoron to describe your life-altering "event"; however, when I came across one definition for "perfect," it so profoundly described the impact of what had just happened to my life. As defined by a Webster's dictionary, it was the condition in which all the 'weather' conditions have converged to create a historical, cataclysmic storm to become known then as – The “perfect storm." In answering those personal questions racing inside me: Was it historic? – Yes; was it cataclysmic? – YES! And, Yes!
So for me, it was the perfect description of my new found "position in life."
Although the word "perfect storm" (an expression made notable from a movie made in the year 2000 about such a phenomenon) may seem odd in our modern vernacular as a way to explain the devastation that happens to you when dealing with severe grief. However, the feelings generated from such a calamitous loss can feel like an thunderous assault to your heart, to your mind, to your life, and to the core – of your soul; your very existence feels as if it's in jeopardy.
Therefore a "perfect storm" in simple term means 1) having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics.
2) absolute; complete. And, my definition would be the total power to devastate and level any, and everything, in its path!
In this sense, this "perfect storm" did just that – it absolutely – leveled me.
Each day, I uttered, “I cannot do this. It hurts too much!” Every step was excruciating! Every breath, painful!
As in the words of the old gospel hymn – ‘Sorrow heavy chains are strong’!
And, I was chained... to the overwhelming pain.