"From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I" Psalm 61:2 (NKJV)
"He is my respiration and my inspiration. . ." Kimberly Page-Robinson
Noted authors Brook Noel and Pamela Blair states in their book, I Wasn't Ready to Say Goodbye: Surviving, Coping and Healing After the Sudden Death of a Loved One – "Many people will experience a state of numbness while moving through grief. The world may take on a dreamlike quality or seem to go on separate from them. Often experiences or people that once evoked joy and happiness evoke nothing at all. Activities once enjoyed seem foreign. Some people spend a relatively short time in this numb state, as short as a few days, while others find it lingers. This is part of how our bodies help to protect us from the overwhelming emotions caused by our loved one’s death. We become numb and filter through information as we are able, instead of all at once. The feelings will come back, but it will take time."
Therefore, with those words, I held on to the hope that in time, the pain will become more bearable, and try to hold on and trust in the promise of God's "unchanging" hand. He was and is – my only hope . . . As the psalmist so aptly expresses the sentiment that continues to permeate my soul – "Whom have I in heaven but You?" (Psalm 73:25)
So, let your heart whisper this prayer:
Answer me speedily, O Lord;
My spirit fails!
Do not hide Your face from me,
Lest I be like those who go down into the pit.
Cause me to hear Your lovingkindness in the morning,
For in You do I trust;
Cause me to know the way in which I should walk,
For I lift up my soul to You. Psalm 143 (NKJV)
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